PI... posting... imaging...

I always wanted to try and post an image here but I never had the chance nor the time (or should I say I didn't make time) to actually load an image in. So I decided I am going to load some of my jobs and make sort of an... online portfolio if you will. Why not? I have the option to do it, why not use Blogspot to its full potential!

So I am starting with a recently done banquet menu for Shahnawaz Palace. I do a lot of work for the Indian community in Central Jersey because my boss is Indian and she has a lot of Indian clients. It is actually an amazing experience in a sense that I am learning about another culture, but it is also kind of sad whenever I realize that I do not have or I am losing my own connection to my own culture. I know there are a lot of Pinoys in my area and I know there must be some sort of guild or associations formed and composed by Pinoys. I told my wife we should look around and expose ourselves to these communities. We should branch out and get to know some people. Make new friends and explore new opportunities. I particularly want to branch out since I am looking to do some freelance work as well and I want to do it for my own community.

Well, I already diverted from the whole reason of posting an image....




Ayan.... Nagawa ko na. I feel a little sense of accomplishment.

bull sh*t... bull sh*t... bull sh*t....

Well, I have been on and off composing a new entry for the past few days now. But the problem is, once I am about to place an entry, all I can think about is bull sh*t stuff. Now, I want my entries to have content... and not just any content... I want STRONG content. But sometimes (or most times on my case) all I can think about is bull sh*t. Last Sunday I was in church, I found myself not listening to the sermon and just thinking about BS (let's just use BS because looking for the "*" character every time I type bull sh*t is disrupting my momentum). Yesterday I was at work and went online to find some stock photos for an ad I was doing, I found myself on Facebook doing nothing but looking around for some new BS and trying to create my own BS. Last night, I ate dinner early so I could go out for a run in the park, but then I found myself BS-ing in front of the TV and the next thing I know, it was 11 o-clock. Can you believe that BS-ing actually consumes my time? So when you think of it, how can I write something with strong content when my mind is full of BS? Alas, dear child (I know "alas, dear child" does not make sense I just always wanted to write something that uses that) I found myself with a good topic with a strong content to write, so I decided to write about bull sh*t. Hey, with this bull sh*t entry, I was able to make an entry, write something creative, use my mind by thinking bull sh*t, practiced my skills in language and skills in typing bull sh*t, got my mind off bull sh*t work and got some much needed break from making ads and setting up type, and most importantly, I developed my BS-ing skills. Having great BS-ing skill is essential. A lot of successful people have become great because of that. A lot of people made a fortune out of that. A lot of politicians have reached great heights because of that. A lot of sales people develop their skills everyday and sell things 100 times their value because of that. So you see, bull sh*t is a strong topic that has content. Be proud that you are reading about bull sh*t, because I feel proud writing about it. Or maybe, I shouldn't be....

not all about change...

Sometimes...it's not all about change. It's not always the best move to start over. Sometimes, you have to look at where you are, and pick up where you left off. Sometimes... you have to work on what you already have and keep adding on to it until it becomes something you always wanted it to be. Sometimes, even when you think your cup is full, you just have to keep on trying and see how much you can put in there just to test your limits. And then, when you are satisfied with what you have, you just take it all in.... slowly... and savor the moment that you finally got what you are looking for.... Yes, that's how life is like... but I was talking about my HALO-HALO!!!!! It is so hard to make one!!!!

my music...

funny how movies can make you think in more ways you think it could make you... so..needless to say...i was watching a movie.... and 1of the main characters said "your music is the one thing you can always come back to and make everything go away" (alright movie buffs, go ahead and cast your guesses in). And you know what, it made me miss my music... I miss my guitar...I miss my days when I just shut everything out and rock out inside my room..music blasting and I'm singing along without a care for the world.. no worries about neighbors complaining... no worries about people close not liking the particular choice of my music at the moment... I miss jamming outside at the front of our house with my friends singing whatever song we could think of and know how to play... I miss listening to the radio with my guitar figuring out the chords and how to play a certain song... I miss setting up the gears and sets for a jamming session... I miss the pain I felt on the tip of my fingers for playing my guitar for so long.... I miss being disappointed because I broke a string and could not find a replacement and would have to wait till the next day to buy a new one... I miss being excited to go home and practice a song I heard on the way home... I miss making my own tunes and playing it for my friends and those I know would appreciate the music... I miss playing and singing along with my sisters... I miss my music.... the one thing I could go back to... is gone... i sure do hope I can bring it back....

restructure

Who would have thought that almost a whole year have passed by without making a single entry. So, I decided, it is time to restructure. Just like most of the companies do lately due to the economy, I will restructure my life and reevaluate the gains and the losses and make successful plans for the future. I am sure it sounds so much easier said than done, but it needs to be done.

so... please stand by... for the restructuring.... hopefully sooner... not by my standards...

"ungloomy"

Ok... since my last entry was... well... gloomy... I would like to make this one.... well... "ungloomy". I have come to the realization, thanks to a special someone (and no tome of sarcasm there, I am really thankful) that I have been left behind. Left behind by time, technology, my own thoughts and actions. My mind runs at 120mph and I haven't had the time to update myself, my being and my productivity. I was told that I have many great ideas, and I do, but I never see them to completion. It's like I am already satisfied with just coming out of the idea, which, for obvious reasons, should not be the case. But hey, if it was that easy to do, then there wouldn't be any need for this dilemma wouldn't we? You see, the problem is, I seem not to follow my own advice. Maybe just like any body else? Why is it so hard for a person to follow their own advice? Isn't that the usual problem? You always know what to say to other people on the exact same situation that you might b going through yourself but you can't really take your own advice for it. Is it because the reality of the risk imposed is onto us and not to others? Is it because we know that if we fail we have no one else to blame but ourselves? Is it because it is hard to accept that your own advice was a failure? Or is it because we do not really know what life is all about?
I kinda think I just answered my own questions. Either way, I am going to slow down my mind and update myself, and maybe see my ideas come to completion.

better than me....

I would like to think that I am good at what I do and that I do a better job than most people... but I guess some people are just better than me. I recently had an interview for a part-time desktop publishing job... was supposed to get a call back yesterday, Friday. Well... today is Saturday. I guess you could say that the phone call never happened. It's a little bit frustrating to think that they found someone better for a part-time desktop publishing job. That is like one of the lowest for-experience or for-resume type of graphic job a person can get, and yet.. apparently... I still wasn't good enough. Someone was still better than me. It is now September. I've been to a few interviews, from different places (actually states) and different positions. Sent out a lot of resumes, probably close to thirty... filled out multiple applications on-line or in paper at the office... updated my portfolio and email samples for those who required them... rewritten (or tweaked is a better term) my "CV" a few times to meet certain requirements... and yet... somehow... a person, somehow, better than me... applied for the same job and apparently.. hired (since I was not). I would like to think that I am a hard worker, a skilled worker... a "better than me" type. People say I should try harder... some people say maybe it is just not meant to be. I just hate the fact that it somehow seems that I am not better than anybody.... I want the time to come when some one will write an anonymous blog or even think quietly... in their own thoughts... about me... a person better than them.