better than me....

I would like to think that I am good at what I do and that I do a better job than most people... but I guess some people are just better than me. I recently had an interview for a part-time desktop publishing job... was supposed to get a call back yesterday, Friday. Well... today is Saturday. I guess you could say that the phone call never happened. It's a little bit frustrating to think that they found someone better for a part-time desktop publishing job. That is like one of the lowest for-experience or for-resume type of graphic job a person can get, and yet.. apparently... I still wasn't good enough. Someone was still better than me. It is now September. I've been to a few interviews, from different places (actually states) and different positions. Sent out a lot of resumes, probably close to thirty... filled out multiple applications on-line or in paper at the office... updated my portfolio and email samples for those who required them... rewritten (or tweaked is a better term) my "CV" a few times to meet certain requirements... and yet... somehow... a person, somehow, better than me... applied for the same job and apparently.. hired (since I was not). I would like to think that I am a hard worker, a skilled worker... a "better than me" type. People say I should try harder... some people say maybe it is just not meant to be. I just hate the fact that it somehow seems that I am not better than anybody.... I want the time to come when some one will write an anonymous blog or even think quietly... in their own thoughts... about me... a person better than them.