how it came to be...

At one point... I think I became too complacent with life... My reality became all but a series of "nows" that passed by so quickly I could not even force my self to look back... orlook forward....no matter how I much I thought about it... I readin a book that a person should think positive thoughts to attract positive energy in one's life and bring inpostivie things... if this is true... then I should be the welathies, happiest person alive... I always have postive thoughts... but I guess there must be something that is blocking my attraction to postive energy at some point... story of my life...