time did go by....

Whoa!!! I told myself I would not let days go by without this blog being blogged... but here it is... a testament to my procastinaity ( I think I just invented a word)... days went... no blog... so here it is... blogging...
Not too long ago... I was planning to start a business... I told some of my friends about it and they were interested... and now... It is still... all... but a plan. Here is where my problem begins. I have a lot of plans... I want to do a lot of things... and yet I do not know where to begin... or do I just lack the motivation. I did thought I had the motivation... I just have to keep reminding myself... why... how.. and to do it... to just do it... do it.. do it... do it... because plans.. with no actions.. are useless... and right now... that is what my mind is.. useless... ahahahaha!!! So much for self praise.
The hardest part is gainign experience... I heard a lot of people say "how will I get experience if no one is willing to give it to me".. and you know what... I am one of them.. thinking that if I was given the opportunity to learn that I could excel... but that opporutnity is hard to get... so I figured why not get it myself... which is harder to do... I found out.
What is to be considered an experience anyway? Years of education, a bachelor's degree.... but arent there a lot of self taught people who managed to build a business empire without a degree... so which one is the real experience? job experience... can be described in a lot of ways... because no 2 jobs are the same no matter what the job description might be... because no 2 person will handle the same job the same way... or is it just the title?
I am sort of making useless ramblings right now.. but atleast I am activating my mind...
ahhhhhhh... my brain is working... I guess it was not so useless afterall...

I want...

I want to write a book... Not just any book but a best seller... Something that will be a mainstay at the Best Choice table at Barnes and Noble. I want to write and direct a short indie film... not just any film... But something that will be very thought provoking yet touching with a very artistic approach. A film that will be a first choice for school film showing and paper reviews. I want to create...to design... somethignt taht people would be amazed of.... not just because of it's beauty... but because of its functionality, practicality, purpose, meaning and servitude... something that people would remember and pass on to their children... I want to start my own company... not just any company... but something that will benefit well not just the employees or the investors but the environment and the community the same. A company that will last a long time even after I'm gone because of it's values and honesty. I want to make my family proud... not just because I am family... But because I was able to make something of myself... I want to give a good life to my family... my mom and dad,my wife, my siblings, my own children... I want to give them the best the world has to offer... I want to accomplish something my family would ultimately be proud of... maybe not soon... but hopefully not never... better later... but not never...

absolutely nothing...

what should I be writing...absolutely nothing!
it's one of those days when you think about a lot of stuff that you can't focus on onething to actually process the thought to your mind. You jump from one thought to the other, you want to start one thing but ended up doing another... one of those days.
I have to get one thing done. I have to force it upon myself to break a bad cycle. So here I am, writing this blog. A testament to completing something... from absolutely nothing.
One thing done... of to another!
Something out of nothing! Off to making somethings....

why today...

today... I start this blog... would I be able to keep it up.. today... I decided I will...
today... I am not just trying... but I'm working on my website up...would I be able to keep it up to date... today... I decided I will...
today... I am paying much attention to detail... to make things right the first time... to spend the right amount of time on doing something right... to finish something I would totally be proud of... would i really be able to do that? today... I decided I will...

Have I ever thought about these things before? Of course! Obviously this is not the first time. Heck! How many times in a person's life do we decide that we are going to set things right from that day on and how many times do we actually stick to it? A lot... is all i can say. What's the difference witht today? well..I'm just not thinking about it, I'm actually doing it. My dreams on paper, or should i say... on digital. My goals set and all my efforts set to it.

Why today? Hmmm... that I really could not give a definite answer though I wanted to. I guess it may have to do witht the fact that I am now 26, my life had been fairly easy (actually reeally easy), I am married, I have a job, but somehow, I am not where I want to be. I feel... well... unaccomplished. So today, I decided to learn more. Not just about myself but the things I really want, the things that would make my wife, my family and myself proud of me.

I have a dream... I have many dreams... and this is just the first step to making them all a reality. And I do hope that it gets tough, that there would be times that I'd be frustrated and almost quitting, and in the process I do hope that I realized that nothing comes easy.... and I deserve what it is I make of my self.

Today...is a new day...and today will last forever... I'm not hoping for it... I am going to work really hard for it!!!

well.. welcome to my blog.... and read the mind of a dreamer....